Yesterday was a warm and sunny day. I took a walk around noon. As I neared the end of my walk, approximately 52 feet from my front door, I noticed a woman exit her apartment to pick up a large moving box next to her front door. At the same time, a dog about theContinue reading “I Got Bit. 😖”
I reached 50 and realized that the exit sign of my life is closer to me than the entrance sign. When I’m gone – nothing is going to change and everything is going to change – over time. I never used to consider things like this 20 years ago. Twenty years ago – because IContinue reading “Why Does The Exit Sign Look So – – – Close?”
Staying sober will always be a challenge. There is ALWAYS an alternative to having a drink.
It’s not. It never was. Or maybe it always has been because imperfection IS perfect. Regardless. We alcoholics missed out on a lot of the drama because we were too busy creating our own by getting drunk. Life, people, complications at work, our feelings – they come in at us like a tsunami during sobrietyContinue reading “Where Does This Notion Come From That Once We Get Sober Everything Is Going To Be Right In The World?”
Usually, one of them, Starla, is hiding under the couch (see photo below) not on the floor, but inside the bottom of the couch. They’ve shredded it. Buster likes to play chase with me when I’m ready to get him in the stroller. He doesn’t chase me – he runs away. By the time IContinue reading “First I have To Find Them – Then I have To Stuff Them In There …”
Wait. Doesn’t AA suggest that the willpower we do have is insufficient to get sober alone? And if that is truly the case – what difference should it make if we give the insignificant amount of power we do have over to God? That would leave us without any whatsoever. Why should God get allContinue reading “AA Step 3 ~Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.”
No. I have to be more. Why? Because I keep adding to my Jennifer Place resume. Who I am is all sorts of good juicy stuff that includes: what I’ve said and done in the past, not said and not done, what I say and do now, and how I think. I am my attitudeContinue reading “Am I The Culmination Of Everything I’ve Said And Done? Or – What?”
No, I am not powerless over alcohol. Alcohol is a liquid and so long as I don’t put it in my body, which is a choice, I have all the power over it I need. I got sober, on my own, and am staying sober. This is power. Saying No to a drink is power.Continue reading ““We admitted we were powerless over alcohol—that our lives had become unmanageable.” Step 1.”
The only way to get sober, the only way to stay sober, is to stop swallowing alcohol. Period. That’s how to win the game. Don’t. Fucking. Play. Everything else is secondary.
Have you ever felt like you’ve wasted your time, energy and breath trying to explain something to someone who just cannot seem to GET IT? And you wonder something like “How is it possible that no matter what I say, she/he just cannot seem to grasp it? How am I explaining this wrong? What elseContinue reading “When It Comes To Your Sobriety Do You Feel Understood?”
It has been one CRAZY year! During 2020, I started a new relationship in February, got sober in March, Had a seizure and spent three days in the hospital in April, broke up with my boyfriend in May, got back together with him in May, moved in June, started exercising in June, my youngest sonContinue reading “WHERE DID THE ROAD TAKE YOU DURING 2020?”
Be your own Santa. Give yourself a little love and a nice Christmas present. Stay sober today.
In sober circles this kind of logic is called Insanity. Some folks want the benefit of sobriety while being able to continue drinking. Odd, but true. I read that the holidays are particularly challenging for a lot of folks in sobriety. They don’t want to be seen as non-drinkers. Why? I do not know. What’sContinue reading “I’ll Take An Order Of ‘All The Benefits Without Doing Any Of The Work’. 😁”
I do want to do it, but I don’t. I want to want to do it, but I really don’t want to do it. This internal back-and-forth, tug of war bologna, is driving me nuts. What’s a person to do? And whose idea was it anyway to endow humans with this aggravating business of havingContinue reading “If It’s MY Choice, Why Am I So Grouchy About It?”